It's already 11.30pm. I don't know how long I'll blog. There's so much marking to be down but yet I felt that I needed to pen down my thoughts...

It has been a busy week. Everyday I woke up early in the morning to get to Bedok Green Primary School to mark the PSLE papers. Each day after work there's so much to do. I went to cut my hair on the 1st day, went to church for a special meeting with a missionary from China on the 2nd day and today I went for BS. I must confessed that I have yielded to my flesh and hit the bed every night after reading the bible. I've not marked anything and looking at the piles of work really frightens me. Anyway, tomorrow is the last day of PSLE marking. It's also my mother's birthday. I'm bringing her out for dinner. So there goes my marking time again. However, I believe there is a way out. Enough of my introduction, the reason why I still blog despite my lack of time is because I wanna share of what I've learnt and heard from God these 2 days.

Let's talk about yesterday's meeting with Pastor Dennis. He's an Caucasian but he speaks pretty fluent English, Cantonese and Chinese!!! He shares about what he has been doing all along in China. He showed us videos and pictures of what is happening in China. I'm amazed to see the wonderful works of God in the rural areas in China. God sent missionaries to China to spread the love and Word of God to these people. And because of these missionaries, more and more China people are added into the kingdom of God. Seeing the hunger of these people for the Word of God really touches my heart. Thousands of them gathered in a small courtyard listening to the Word of God being preached. Everyone is so attentive and earnest to copy down the scriptures as they do not have bibles. How blessed we are, to be living in Singapore whereby there is freedom of religions and we can get our bibles anywhere! As I listen to the sharing done by Pastor Dennis and watched the video, I could hear my heart crying out, "God, use me!" I have a heart for China. I want to be part of the team that God sends to do a work in China. I want to be trained and discipled to do His work. I know now is a preparation phase for me before I really enter into missions. So right now, I can only pray for China and contribute as much finances as I can for missions.

As I'm typing this now, I'm reminded of what someone dear to me told me when I tried to get her to come back to church. The reason she gave for not coming is, she is still at a micro level of wanting to know God whereas our church is moving into a macro level of being a blessing to others in missions. Like what Pastor Kong shared and what Ying reiterated in her blog, God doesn't just want us to be blessed. We shouldn't focus on the wrong covenant. We should be blessed SO THAT we can be a blessings to others! So many people missed their destiny and relationship with God just because they want to live in their own comfort. So many came to church just wanting to be blessed but not wanting to bless others. It's a sad thing to know that people stayed away from church just because they feel that missions are not for them. In fact, God has called everyone to be missionaries! Jesus said in Matt 28:19:

"Go therefore and make disciples of all the nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit."

Well, I was disappointed in this dear fren of mine who rejected my many invitations. However, I will not give up in her. I believe my heart for her will cause her to be touched one day and she'll be back. She'll grow stronger in the Lord. The Word of God says, "Do not be weary while doing good, for in due season we shall reap if we do not lose heart."

So, to Mic:
It is normal to be disappointed when people fail you. But don't let that disappointment get you down or get in your way of meeting God and fulfilling your destiny in Him. The Word of God says that we should praise Him IN EVERY situations. Our situations should never become a barrier between us and God. His ways are higher than our ways, His thoughts are higher than our thoughts too! I believe He has a better plan which we do not know yet. I also believe that God is building His people up spiritually to do His work. That includes you and I. As both of us have desires to touch lives and impact people, let's build ourselves up strong in the Word, spiritually mature, to be a light that shines wherever we go. Let's bear such a good testimony for Him that people will be attracted to us that we might direct them to God. Huiling reminded me this morning: The proof of our desire is in our pursuit. Let's do all that we can to pursue after our desire ok? With men, it is impossible. But with God, all things are possible. Yes!! The Word of God is true! You can do it together with God. You can do all things through Christ who strengthens YOU. Only through Jesus and not by your own strength. This verse applies not just to everyone, but that everyone includes YOU. Don't lose heart. Keep praying for your fren. I won't forget my dear frens too. Last but not least, Mic, I enjoyed the time we spent talking each time after our BS and before we pray. Thanks for sharing and for staying back till so late.

John 4:23:
"But the hour is coming, and now is, when the true worshipers will WORSHIP the Father in SPIRIT and TRUTH; for the Father is seeking such to WORSHIP Him."

Ps 29:2:
"Give unto the LORD the glory due to His name; WORSHIP the LORD in the beauty of holiness."

Wow! It's a long entry... It's 1am! I got to wake up in about 5 hours' time. So I shall stop here for the time being. I still have something else to share... perhaps I'll continue tomorrow. :D